Someone please tell me how tumblr werks. :)) I can’t see the fun factor here. XD

Since I’m bored, I decided to re-play Fatal Frame III: The Tormented. Hahaha! XDDD

I feel nauseated. For almost a week now, I’ve succumbed to cough, cold, and fever and is relapsing every single time I start worrying about a lot of things. My head hurts. The world seems blurry all of sudden. What is it that pains me again?

For the past few days, I’ve been “drowning.” The feel of water won’t leave my body and I can smell chlorine even if I’m miles away from a pool or any body of water. Right now, I can feel it, like I’ve been falling down a deep, dark ocean. It’s hard to breathe sometimes.

Thinking has been difficult. I have tasks to accomplish but I couldn’t focus on any of them. Time is something I really don’t have the luxury of. Deadlines are coming up. There’s paperwoks, logos, the bulletin board, and my other projects. I’m failing behind a lot.

I’m tired of people especially if I love them so much. There have been a lot of disappointments and misunderstandings and I’m too fed up to deal with them. I don’t think I have the energy to be even angry or even cry. Wow, I must’ve hit rock bottom.

Just as that songs says, life goes on. I haven’t lost hope yet. Things will DEFINITELY be better tomorrow… but the smell of water won’t leave me. I still feel nauseated… Even now I stretch out my hand in hopes of grasping that hand… That hand that will hold mine back and never let go. I don’t need guidance. All I need is the assurance that I’ll always feel that hand whenever I reach out. That is all.

…But the smell still lingers.